Happy but Not really

After all the hardwork, the hours put in, the sleepless nights, the soundless sleeps, the long spells of illness, the mishaps, finally receiving the rewards, the recognition. A celebration should be in order. However, somehow, something seems missing. The actual feeling of accomplishment is not present. The feeling of anxiety and burden increased. The worry of making a mistake comes more frequent. The feeling of loneliness. Of not belonging.

Could it be only greed? The need to gain it all? Must it be everything before the contentment? The accomplishment, check. The recognition, check. The finances, on its way. The companionship, ................... The emptiness out weighs those that have been met. Loneliness again? But no effort has been put in. No complete effort. No sacrifices. No..... chances to meet anyone.

Am I Too demanding?

~m0r31d~

Auld Lang Syne

Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
and never brought to mind ?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
and auld lang syne ?

CHORUS:
For auld lang syne, my dear,
for auld lang syne,
we'll take a cup o’ kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.
And surely you’ll buy your pint cup !
And surely I’ll buy mine !
And we'll take a cup o’ kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.

CHORUS
We two have run about the slopes,
and picked the daisies fine ;
But we’ve wandered many a weary foot,
since auld lang syne.

CHORUS
We two have paddled in the stream,
from morning sun till dine† ;
But seas between us broad have roared
since auld lang syne.

CHORUS
And there’s a hand my trusty friend !
And give us a hand o’ thine !
And we’ll take a right good-will draught,
for auld lang syne.

CHORUS

HAPPY NEW YeAR 2008~!!!!

followed by CNY in a couple of weeks..

~moR3Id~

Perfection

per·fec·tion
/pərˈfɛkʃən/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[per-fek-shuhn] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1.the state or quality of being or becoming perfect.
2.the highest degree of proficiency, skill, or excellence, as in some art.
3.a perfect embodiment or example of something.
4.a quality, trait, or feature of the highest degree of excellence.
5.the highest or most nearly perfect degree of a quality or trait.
6.the act or fact of perfecting.

Perfection, something we usually strive to achieve. Some seem to reach it, while others fall short. And yet there are also those whom choose to avoid perfection altogether. What is there in perfection that attracts some, and yet repulses others? Isn't the dream of a perfect world the dream of everyone? Do we not wish to live in a Utopia where no harm is done unto others, no dangers , and no suffering?

In order to achieve perfection, we learn to live by rules. Rules that drive us not to commit those crimes. Rules that try to warn us off dangers that occur. Rules that try to end our suffering. However, these rules can't completely eliminate the wrong doings, and sufferings that occur. There are also always ways of going around these rules. Does that not make these rules imperfect? Then why are we depending on rules to achieve perfection on their own are already imperfect?

Then again, this is what humanity is about. About making the best out of situations. The differences between each other make us see the imperfection that we have and then try to better ourselves. We will eventually try to achieve that certain level of perfection. And the fact that we still continuously try to obtain perfection proves that we are also imperfect. However, although we cannot be that perfect diamond, it is this imperfection that make us human beings seem ever more beautiful.

~m0rbid~

Early in the morning

Here I am at 4.30am sitting in my office blogging. What am I still doing here so early in the morning you ask?? That's because I've not even gone home yet. Hard working you say.. Nope, that was never on my mind. But if I don't do it, we're not going me make it on time. DATELINE's in the morning. And a long way to go yet.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS MODEL TO BE OVER AND DONE WITH

Sleepy M0r31d

working at night

Slow download rates

Being one of the hardcore download freaks, I often find my Bit torrent download list overloaded with lots of downloads that don't even have meaning. I download them, and just delete them without even seeing what the content is about. Sounds like a regular bit hogger huh? but no. that's not the real reason I do this. I just download sometimes just as a means of testing the download rate. As StreamyX users, we are promised broadband like internet connections. Yet, after several months, my bittorrent list is still as full as you can see. Reason is because, you just can't get any downloads completed.

Talk about bad service~!!!

Reunions

There are recent talks of geting together for reunions. A very normal event commonly done at the end of the year. It IS the holidays and the end as well as the start of a new year. Now here's a quesion for you, is everyone involved in these reunions actually able to turn up? and if they don't, is the reason given by those missing parties, the true and real reason for not turning up? Excuses perhaps?

The most dreaded reunions I guess, for most youngsters at least would be family reunions. Imgaine having to meet a big number of aunts and uncles, and yet only know like a small handfull. And then those uncles and aunts will always ask the same questions. "what are you doing now? where is your girlfriend? when are you going to get married? " These questions keep coming at you repeatedly up to the point where it saturation begins, and you'd actually start to wonder, "why did I ever decide to attend this reunion"

~m0r31d~